I am one of those people that likes to go the corner coffee shops or the popular food mart/gas stations with the self-serve coffee stands that have about 10 different choices or flavors of coffee to choose from. 9 out of 10 times I will use the self-serve station because I am an unpredictable prick or in other words I have a hard time making a decision when presented with so many choices. It all starts when you enter through the food mart /gas station door…which side of the counter should I use? Do I go left or right? What cup size will I get today? How strong of a coffee do I need today? Do I want any flavors? Will I use creamer? half and half? milk? Then comes the most difficult decision of them all…..how sweet do I want my coffee today? Why is it that at this point, you start to feel like your every move is being looked at? We begin to ponder if someone is watching us? Are they checking to see if I am making healthy conscious choices? Are they judging me? All these questions running through my/our minds as we decide the sweetness level of our morning Cup of Joe. So what if I need to pour about 30 seconds worth of sugar or about 10 packets of sugar so that I can enjoy my coffee! That’s not a lot. Look at the girl wearing the green shirt on the other side of the counter, she just used about 15 packets of sugar. She’s the one with the problem. You don’t know me! Its not like I do this every morning. (Laughing) It’s almost like going through the 5 stages of grief and loss; Denial, Anger, Bargaining, Depression, and Acceptance. At the final stage, you just accept and give in and decide to cut yourself off too soon from the sugar. Your coffee ends up tasting like black water, and you tell yourself, “I will just fix it at home”. I don’t need this type of negativity in my life, not in the morning when I am trying to get my coffee so that I can finally finish waking-up.
Self-serve stations…..turning something as simple as grabbing a cup of coffee into a moment of turmoil and despair.